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I'm a little odd, and I love it. I love to dream big. People always tell me that I'm foolish and my hopes are too high, things are impossible. But guess what? Nothing is actually impossible because God is on my side. The timing may be off, but there is always the possibility that it will happen in the future if it doesn't happen now. Thus, I have many dreams. One of them is to become a championship Irish Dancer. Is it likely? No. But is it possible? Yes. It may never happen, but it's still a dream. I also want to be a math teacher. Yup, one of the hardest subjects to teach and I want Jr. High which some people also say is super hard. But, I love the kids and it is possible for me to be the greatest Jr. High teacher ever. Will it happen right away? Of course not- but it'll happen eventually if I work hard enough. What else do I like to do? I love being outdoors. I hike, snowshoe, backpack, and camp (in a leaky tent in the snow) whenever possible and I love it no matter what. One of my dreams is to learn to rock climb and repel and go all over the world doing that. Last, but definitely not least, my biggest dream is to have an eternal family. I love my family so much, and more than anything else in my life I want to have my own eternal husband and children to look after, love, and cherish for all eternity. Once again, people say it is impossible, but I've seen families that are sealed in the temple and I know that if none of my other dreams are fulfilled, this one will be.
You know, many people say, "You grew up in the church- of course you wouldn't be anything else." Yes I grew up in the church, but I've had my doubts over the years. What my life in the church gave me was a strong foundation that I could lean on when times got rough. My faith was kind of shaky through my teenage years. But, once I got to college, I knew that I could no longer rely on the faith of my parents and others around me. I had to know for myself. One thing that we all must realize about the gospel is that in order to gain greater faith we often have to act as if we already have it. It seems like a contradiction, but it really isn't- our faith grows stronger as we exercise it. In college, I finally started really reading the scriptures and praying every day. I still didn't know for sure that the gospel was true, but I figured the way to gain knowledge was to try it out for a while. Things got better and better. Then, at the end of my sophomore year, things got shaken up a bit. My grandpa was diagnosed with cancer and my 13 year old cousin died after falling out of a bunkbed. The latter happened Easter weekend, right as we were celebrating the Atonement and Resurrection of Jesus Christ. Throughout the months that followed with visits to family members who were struggling, I realized that my family was so close knit and loved each other so much- there is no way that a loving God, our Father in Heaven, would let us be separated. That is when my testimony became solid.
For me, hope is trust that things can and will change and become better. For me, the biggest hope is for my family. I hope to see my 13 year old cousin again. I hope to have more hikes with my grandpa through the mountains where he teaches me how to identify plants. I hope to be married and sealed for eternity in a temple. I hope that my children will always be with me. Hope is an action. I always thought it was simply an emotion, but it is something that we DO. I choose to have hope in the resurrection, even though there are times when my deceased friends and family seem to be far away. Hope is an enabling force that can destroy fear. It is a source of strength and optimism. As we choose to have hope, we choose to see the possibilities of silver linings in the clouds overheard. That is why it is so important in my life. It helps me press on through trials because I have chosen to have the hope that it will all be worth it as I stand before my Father in Heaven.
How I live my faith... like many of you, this may be a hard question to answer. I grew up in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and for me, the church IS my life. There's no question about it, it's engrained in everything I do. The church teaches to save money and stay out of debt. I only have about 3 semesters of school left, and I have never taken out any form of a loan. The church teaches about modesty. Thus, when I shop for clothing I follow the standards found in the For Strength of Youth pamphlet distributed by our church. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, or indulge in any other addicting behavior because I know it does not bring peace or joy. All of these things are just inherent in my life style. Some of the other things that I do through the church is service. Every day, I pray to find someone to serve. Often it can be found through visiting sisters in my ward to whom I am assigned to watch over. Sometimes it is by helping to create weekly activities for my single's group. These activities are patterned after Family Home Evening and help prepare the single men and women to have their own "FHE" when they are married. Family Home Evening is a time set aside each week for families to get together. We have a lesson about the gospel, we sing songs, have treats, and often participate in a family activity together. I also am currently just starting to learn to do family history work. It is something that I know I should do, and as I learn more, I get even more excited. I have felt God's love, so I know He is a loving God. But, if He really loves us, wouldn't He give every single one of us as many chances as possible to return to Him? That is what I do with family history and temple work. It is the greatest of all the services I give. I give those who never had the chance to partake of spiritual blessings a chance to repent and participate in ordinances that are now out of their reach. How I live my faith: I serve, and I love it.